to hell with those weirdos who adds you on msn and acts as if they're your close friend, "waves at jac~", oh please you just sound like a disgusting friggin' tikopeh. say i'm giving you e bad comments saying i'm being rude when i don't even know you at all, hell yes cause it's like they like to ask ques abt your personal info when i hell don't even know them at all. say i'm being so negative about making friends online, touch your heart and cross your chest, to hell why did you even get to my friendster page and just add someone unknowingly. it even feels disgusting now thinking that i even bother to reply you, urgh i thought i was being nice but i can't stand it anymore. or please go get some advice on how to cheat girls online then, your way is purely sticking a white piece of paper on your forehead "hi miss i can't wait to know more about you, *gives the cheeky smile*" F off lah!

he must have stepped on my tail today, toooooooo bad i'm not in the best of moods.

i miss my baby real bad.


it may sound funny, it has only been less than 24 hours since i last heard his voice and maybe like a little more than 36hours since i last saw him. but the fact that i can't stop thinking he's gonna be away for the next 240hours. and the rainy season must also have played a part, the feeling of emptiness and the sad sad grey sky with endless roaring of thunder, seems as if they're staging a play of my heart.

it's just the case in the worst of times when we may be fighting real bad, had our times off each other but never have we not contact each other for more than 24hours i guess. since last Christmas, then, that time when someone just suddenly pops behind my back and whispers into my ear about which tile to throw next, messes up my hair and walked away. i knew there was some kinda connection somewhere(:

"dear, know smth, i smile when i wake up every morning. cause it's another new day and another day closer to seeing you(:" that's what he told me the other time when he had the long vacation of 3wks in there, now, i'm gonna use this to get going. i can't imagine him gg away for longer trips in the future ):

for now, i only have little timberlakesai for me to hug and talk to every night.

i know the times when i can't stand you losing your temper, when you get hot headed and start the loud talks. i don't care, it's still you. cause not everyone's perfect, and i'm sure quarrels are obstacles to be crossed to get closer. we're all learning, growing up at the same time. i need my "things to say to a angry boyfriend" and you "anger management". we forgive and we understand that this's just part and parcel(: and for the moment, i know carrot juices and hugs from the back do still work the best, ha(:

4 hours to a day down and 9 more to go.
it's simple. baby, i miss you.